There are so many times in my life that I thought to myself, if only I can turn back time. I would redo my whole life or at least try to do a lot of things differently.  Though even if I did turn back time that probably would not change anything that the people would do around, they would be doing the same old thing that they did last time that I did not want them to.  I feel that there are a lot of opportunities that I have missed and I know that there is no way to make up for all the time in my life that was wasted.  All I know is I have to stop trying to live in the past and start living in the present. Now that I am in college hopefully I will have a lot of new opportunities, and I know that I am going to try the best I can to make up for all the time that was lost.

Hm, I never actually paid any attention to the smells around, I mean I notice sometimes that one smell reminds me of another but it never reminds me of any kind of memory or anything that I have experienced before.  I guess I could say that sometimes when I come home and walk through the door and my mom is cooking a certain kind of ingredient I can tell exactly what it smells like and I can usually guess pretty good what dish she is making and it reminds me of when she used to make it before.  But yeah other than that I really do not pay attention to the smells around unless maybe its a really foul odor and its hard to breathe which never actually reminds me of any kind of memory besides maybe I smelled it before somewhere else.

I have never actually traveled anywhere before.  The farthest I have ever traveled was downtown to a place which was probably only about an hour drive away from home.  I did not really like it, it make me feel very uncomfortable, not because of how it looked,  sounded,  felt, or smelled.  I always dreaded going there.  I just did not like it because of the reason I was going there.  But anyways besides that, I know that when I get older or maybe have more time on my hands like maybe finish college and get a job then I want to definitely travel somewhere and see all the different kinds of cultures and maybe learn different languages and maybe even perhaps permenently live in another country.

My one major turning point in life that I can think of would be when I decided to get my GED so that I can attend college.  Since I have never actually studied properly I decided that I should probably take a GED preparation class and see if it would make myself understand any of the 5 subjects easier.  To get a GED I had to take 5 tests on 5 different subjects, the subjects I had to take the tests on were: Language Arts Reading, Language Arts Writing Part 1(grammar part), Language Arts Writing Part 2(essay part) Science, and Math.  I passed all the tests on the 1st attempt except the writing part.  I am not sure why I failed the writing test but I think it was because my essay was too short.  I managed to pass the 2nd time I took the writing test though.  It took me about 2 months to get my GED and once I got it I felt like my life had now changed for the better.  Getting an education has changed my life in many ways.  I feel that I am now more goal oriented and responsible.  If I decided not to get my GED and get into college, I do not know where I would be or what I would be doing.  All I know is that I am very glad that I finally feel like I am actually accomplishing something in life, like I am finally maybe catching up to other people and doing what everyone else is doing and getting on the right path to doing the right thing.

I do not think I turned out to be like my parents at all, both of my parents are very different from each other and I do not think that I am either of them.  As far as who has influenced me the most, there is no one I can really choose from since I was home-schooled, I really do not have anyone like a teacher or a spiritual leader to influence me.  There is this one person on the internet that I met that made me have a whole new prespective on life and really influenced me to look at things in a better light.  For example, if you try your best at something and it didn’t turn out the way you wanted it to, that does not mean it is the end of the world. You did your best and that was all you could do.  They also made me realize that the way to find happiness is to not think too much about what other people think or say about you and that you should live your life or die trying.  I also realized that no one can be happy for you, only you can be happy for yourself.  Lastly, you should not be afraid that you do or say something wrong because a lot of people make mistakes.  Even though I just met this person on the internet, I feel that they have greatly influenced me and made me realize that there are a lot of ups and downs, and wrong and right things  in life and as long as you try your best you will be happy.